Today my heart explodes with joy
Today I woke up in my new home
Today I drink my coffee out of china
Today I play my music loud and dance
I danced around and around and around
With my hands raised and a smile on my face
Today my heart explodes with joy
God has brought me through the valley
For today I am in my new home
“You got out of a bad relationship because it was bad,
but you are still resentful and angry
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You got out of financial debt, but you still can’t control the desire to spend on frivolous things
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You got out of a bad habit or addiction, but you still long to try it just one more time
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You said, I forgive you, but you can’t seem to forget and have peace with that person
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You told your unequally yoked mate that it was over, but you still continue to call
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You got out of that horribly oppressive job, but you are still trying to sabotage the company after you’ve left
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You cut off the affair with that married man/woman, but you still lust after him/her
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You broke off your relationship with that hurtful, abusive person, but you are suspicious and distrusting of every new person you meet
(you let the devil leave his bags)
You decided to let go of the past hurts from growing up in an unstable environment, yet you believe you are unworthy of love from others and you refuse to get attached to anyone
(you let the devil leave his bags)
When you put the devil out, please make sure he takes his bags!”
Don’t you just love friends,
I do
August 28, 2008
This is a historical evening in my life
It is the last night that I will spend in the camper
God is SOOOOO good
I’ve journaled a lot this week
But it’s all time-wasting-mindless-dribble in comparison
I should probably do something to mark the occasion
Like take some sleeping pills after spraying the back of the mattress with roach and ant poison
*shudder*
Man, I can’t wait to get out!
Dood refuses to go with me for several nights on account of my refusing to pay for cable TV
Which is nothing but brain cell killing, trash,
In my opinion
Mark 9:23
“EVERYTHING is possible for him who believes”
Some of you are swimming neck deep in your troubles
You’re just hoping and praying that no one notices
Occasionally you’ll get pulled under from the burden, from exhaustion
You work with all your might to get back to the surface
Then look around, hoping again that no one noticed
Someone dose know what you’re going through
You know
And it’s tearing you up
It’s tearing up your relationship with your family
It’s tearing up your relationship with your friends
It’s tearing up your relationship with God
When I was in college I worked to get my lifeguard certificate
One of the things they taught us was that a person can only pull themselves back up to the surface two times
If they go under a third time
That’s it,
They’ll drown
So we had to save them before they went under that third time
How many times have you gone under
How many more times can you pull yourself back up
There is help
There is rest
There is peace and hope
God is waiting
Run to him now
A big shout out to the beautiful women who came and helped me move today
Angels
Absolute angels
We moved beds and books, a lot of books
Bless their hearts it was a lot of books
A lot of books
Books are heavy
(most of which, by the way, are being donated to the children’s home library, I’ve given them so many books and the kids are so excited to get them, one of them said, “Barns and Noble’s got nothing on us” updating the library is our service project this year)
Once again I opened boxes
And found stuff I forgot I had
Today it was more old tea cups and framed photos
Once again Dood ended up playing with toys
An irritatingly loud rubber chicken
And
Finally our yard sale pile is growing
The abandoned kittens my parents took in have been dying one at a time
They’ve been a complete annoyance with their crying all night and pooping everywhere
But this is sad
Mostly cause I’m pretty sure dad took them in to help cope with our moving out
Was reading … something yesterday about …a particular child who …is having a great deal of trouble
And it said, “drank a can of Budweiser his mom gave him when he was five”
Someone how I thought that should be put on a billboard somewhere as a more realistic advertisement for alcohol
Got my blue chip last night
Really should have been my thirty day chip but on day one I didn’t have the courage to stand in front of people
Last night I did
And amazingly I smiled all the way back to my seat
I put it on my key chain, really proud of that
I am a believer in Jesus Christ who struggles with co-dependency and depression
Oh hey
I’ve lost weight
Yea me, oh yeah, I can fit into my jeans again
Double yea!
Haven’t seen the lady on the side of the street all week
Had a child act out the other day
I was releasing / venting with the other teachers
When one said, “well Ms Brenda, the child’s got papers!”
I laughed so hard I almost peed my britches
“got paper” = certifiable
Bless her heart she does ‘got papers’
I should get papers
Some of ya’ll need papers
Started a collage of all the scraps of cards and photos and scriptures and stuff I’ve been given over the last three years
It was heart warming to re-read each one
A real blessing to be reminded all at once how much I have meant to some people and all the experiences these years have held
Thank you, some of you are represented on that collage
Well I’ve offended somebody else
I offended someone when I said I was going to
Africa
(I hope I am I haven’t gotten the paperwork in yet.)
I offended someone when I said, “don’t’ gripe at me if you don’t’ like my webpage just don’t come to it”
I offended someone when I said, “don’t comment if you can’t leave a name”
I offended someone when I said, “Christians shouldn’t gossip about each other or excluded each other”
I offended someone when I said, “pray before saying you can’t help me”
And now I have offended someone by saying that I don’t like naked pictures of men sent to my phone
Want to know what offends me?????
People who refuse to respect your boundaries and choose to get offended by morality or Christianity or the whole idea of actually doing what God called us to do rather than sitting on their butts and waiting for hells gates to open wide
I say get off my blog and out my email
Dang people,
Isn’t there some drug dealer or rapist or something you could be discussing your ideas with????
Sorry, got no love this morning
Ya’ll on my nerves
