brenda's thoughts, watch out I'm Christian

I heard or read that God has dump trucks full of blessings waiting to pour out on us but we're so busy trying to climb up the dump truck and dig out a few blessings for ourselves that he can't give them to us. We just aren't ‘in a position to receive them'.

Well I certainly feel like I'm having blessings poured out on me. For example, 

• I get my first half pay check next week and
• I get the keys to my new classroom today and
• the fella I paddle with now is so great to hang out with and
• dood and I will be moving into our own place soon and
• I'm being asked to take on more and more responsibility at church and
• I've grown so much closer to some really good friends and
• I've learned and am re-learning everyday to keep my focus on God even when turning way seems natural. I think that's the most important thing. Don't turn away even if your ashamed, even when something else looks terribly inviting or interesting, even when you're scared. Don't turn away.

Once I was given a ride on a large Air Force aircraft (k-135 refueling tanker). During the flight we were allowed to walk around (carrying our oxygen bags) and talk to everyone. I walked up to the cock pit. The view was incredible. Enormous cumulous cloud formations in all directions! We flew around and between them. I asked, "What would happen if we went through one?" The pilot (who later got in trouble for this) said, "lets find out."  The approach was thrilling, as we came closer and closer to what appeared to be a massive white wall we all braced ourselves (except the people walking around in the back, which I later got in trouble for). Then we plunged in. After a few heart stopping moments of turbulence we were spit out the other side. Amazing!

This is how it feels to be headed for the pouring out of blessings. Amazing! Everything is on the verge of change and I know it. It's both scary and thrilling at the same time, like a set of big rapids. I have this desire to just brace myself and ride it out because I know it will wash me up on the shores of a paradise.