Tuesday, April 24, 2007

chasing down thoughts

I feel like I am on the dirt road of life walking and talking with God trying to get things straightened out. I keep trying to understand my past. "Why do I do the things that I do?"(Just this morning I argued with myself that no good step forward, whether it be scientific, theological or emotional, can be made without a clear understanding of the actions in the past.) Meanwhile God keeps trying to get me to understand about my future. I'm totally not listening.

It's like the other day when Sarah and I were on the river. We had pulled up to the bank and she was going to tie us to an over hanging tree. She got all stressed out because she was trying to find the end of the rope that was in a messy pile that she was standing on while trying to balance her self because she was standing up in the canoe, while also trying to keep hold of the slippery tree so we wouldn't drift away. The canoe was rocking back and forth. Her hand slipped off the muddy tree once or twice. The rope was actually two ropes tied together. Exasperation! She looked up just a little and saw that there were cement steps leading into the water right next to the canoe.  She stepped out, got her balance, grabbed up all the rope at once and then looked up some more to see me. She saw that I had a tight grip on the tree and we were going no where. I smiled and shook my head. We both laughed. She said, "I know what I'm doing!" And we laughed some more.

We all laugh about stuff like that but we all do it. We get so caught up in the problem at the moment that we don't consider that we're not in it alone. God is with us. We don't see that there is an answer. God is trying to show us. We feel over whelmed, scared and angry. God is still there. We just have to stop and look up.

You see, for split second she forgot she, she wasn't in the canoe alone, I was there, she thought she had to do it all by herself and that frightened her, but she wasn't alone, she forgot I was there. If she had fallen in I would have jumped in after her. If she had gotten hurt I would have taken care of her. If she couldn't hold onto the tree I would have held it for her. If the current had carried us down stream I would have paddled us back. She forgot she wasn't alone. I was there.

If I will do this much for my daughter how much more will your heavenly father do for you?

Posted by brenda at 18:49:33 | Permanent Link | Comments (2) |
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1 - Brenda,
Good post. God will in deed take care of us. This post reminds me of my "memos" post (4/29/07 muddypuddles.blog.com). I think you will like it. Dennis (Comment this)

Written by: Dennis at 2007/05/21 - 05:16:56
2 - Brenda, what an awesome way to share what God is doing in your life. I really want to talk to you about the rafting. I can''t wait to see you Saturday, try to bring someone if you can. Keep up the inspirational blogging.

etta (Comment this)

Written by: etta at 2007/05/25 - 13:37:11
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